Chelsea Seaman is a yoga expert and talented author of the book Rising Up Stronger. She has turned her passion into her career and teaches yoga around the world. You can join Chelsea on one of her adventures here.
When I started listening to that small whisper from within was when my very predictable life started to shift. I had heard the voice before but I dampened it because of who I thought I was supposed to be. The many hats of my world often drowned it out but yoga gave me the space my voice needed to come in and be heard.
In 2018, I decided to pull my single stamped passport out of whatever box it was buried in and really take myself out of my comfort zone. Having been a full time stay-at-home mom of 11 years and recently divorced I decided there was no time like my 35th birthday to do something drastic.
I forever changed the trajectory of my life when I booked a somewhat impulsive flight to Bali, Indonesia. I did so one month prior to my departure. Even up to that point I felt the guilt weigh heavily down on me about taking this time for myself. It’s so normalized for mothers to never do for themselves .. at least not in such a massive way. For me, as long as childcare was an easy “yes” then I trusted the universe would provide. And It did. I spent two full weeks on the island and quickly found it’s magic wash over and shift everything that made me .. me. And I changed.
Now, 14 months later, the woman who taught yoga part time while homeschooling her three children, has traveled to seven countries on five continents teaching yoga retreats and classes to hundreds. To believe that small voice when saying “yes” to Bali has taken me into a life I could never have dreamed of. I leaned in and fell more in love with myself in the process. It has not only shifted my place in the world but also in how I see myself. I hear that voice so much more clearly now and know how to trust it. But it came from putting my fear down.
It’s easy to talk ourselves out of things. To assume we’ll never pick up that one hobby. To never try something new. To never run that business. To not hop on that flight. Moreover, we can become so disconnected from ourselves that we don’t even have a clue as to what creates a spark in us. But sometimes we just have to decide.
Decide and trust that the universe will hold that space for us. Decide and put something into motion. Just decide. It took a lot of rewiring for those around me to catch up and see this new path that I was creating for myself. Change is scary for people. It is scary for the one changing. But fear is worse.
As Eat Pray Love’s Author, Elizabeth Gilbert says, “Fear is boring, because fear only ever has one thing to say to us, and that thing is: “STOP!” It keeps us from doing the things that set our souls aflame. It dampens our fire and keeps us in that uninspired state. When I look back at my life and reflect on the times when I felt most alive they’ve come from feeling lost and finding my way out. It’s me making a decision for myself and doing everything in my power to make it happen. Because on the other side of fear are the very best things in life .. just decide.